[He's startled but not enough he pulls away. He's sort of at a loss and he shrugs again, tense and ready to spring into action if necessary. Maybe that's the whole problem.]

I did that yesterday after the trial. [Like that's the only time he's allowed. Considering his voice starts falling apart the long he talks, the more he's aware he's just exhausted.] Crying won't bring her back though, will it? I promised I'd find whoever did this to her and Riku and I didn't.